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Check out this rare gem of a poem. A motivating piece. A gentle guiding light for those who have strayed from their rightful paths.
Still got the blues - Gary Moore
Used to be so easy to give my heart away.
But I found out the hard way,
there's a price you have to pay.
I found out that love was no friend of mine.
I should have known time after time.
So long, it was so long ago,
but I've still got the blues for you.
Used to be so easy to fall in love again.
But I found out the hard way,
it's a road that leads to pain.
I found that love was more than just a game.
You're playin' to win, but you lose just the same.
So long, it was so long ago,
but I've still got the blues for you.
So many years since I've seen your face.
Here in my heart, there's an empty space
where you used to be.
So long, it was so long ago,
but I've still got the blues for you.
Though the days come and go,
there is one thing I know.
I've still got the blues for you.
When was the last time you start out of your sleep from a nightmare, when you woke up sweating, scared, with tears in your eyes? Wishing for a loved one to give you a warm hug while you sob your heart out? I have never such intensive encounter, til about 0400hrs this morning...
being a bastard sounds familiarly tempting...
it's saddening when you finally met One who you feel you should clean up your act for. One whom you wanna care and nurture and share you life with. One whom you wanna give up your decadent life for. One whom you wanna fuck the world aside and settle down peacefully with. And she identifies you with anger and frustrations....when she was the cause of the anger and frustrations...
what a vicious cycle life is...
Strong light pierced through the fabric of my blindfold...I was asphyxiating under the strong pressure of her hand on my nose...I felt the excision, my blood flowing freely...yet I did not feel the pain...There was a pressure over my wound...Then I felt the heat on one side of my face and caught the scent of burning flesh...my flesh...I was on the verge of panic...yet I did not feel the pain...
"The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honourable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well. "
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Another one of those quotes that made me sit up and realised I might have been pursuing the wrong things in life.
I have always made it a point to ask how a colleague or friend is, when he or she is sick. At times I would attempt to give some "pointless" advice that I was sure he or she already knew. Why say such redundant stuff, you might ask. Well, for a simple fact, it's not the advice that helps, it's the show of concern that gives the recipient a sense that someone cares. It is not a miracle cure, yet it makes him/her feel better, cos someone cares.
Most of us are too busy with the rat race, too caught up in the eternal material chase, that we forgot that such a simple sign of goodwill means a lot to one who is ill and down.
I was down with an infected and swollen right eye for the past two days. It got worst today, halfway through the workday, I visited the doctor and got some medication and medical leave for the rest of the day.
To the colleagues and friends who took that precious few seconds out of their busy schedule to wish me well and shower me with get well advices, thank you people. To the one who's well wishes and promise would have meant lots to me, thank you for the shouting match. The 'evil eye' gave me true sight, about whom in my life is worthy and whom is not.
Charity
There were advertisements on TV,
Posters everywhere for you to see.
It was splashed over major publications
Radio DJs repeated the dissemination.
With this huge A&P budget,
They call it charity.
Boy bands appealing to their teenage fans,
Chinese opera singers imploring their aged fans.
Famous artistes performing death-defying scenes,
Despairing footages to tug your heartstings.
With this elaborated scheme,
They call it charity.
The more donations you give,
You get more chances to win gifts.
At the end of the day,
I can only pray,
The funds go to the right party.
This event they called charity.
I just love this guy's love-hate relationship with his readers. They keep coming back, no matter how much he trashes them.
Time: 1930hrs
Location: Coffeeshop near my house
Scene:
A lady in her late 30s, carrying bags of groceries was waiting for her take-away noodles. Her kid, about 10, in his school uniform, ran towards her, screamed at her and threw his bag at her. Continued shouting at her and ran off.
The bewildered look on her face, as she bend over to pick up her son's bag, mixed with a tinge of sadness, was still fresh on my mind.
Have to remind myself again to toss a grenade into the childcare centre I pass by every morning. We don't need such ungrateful brats.
Reality Check:
Marriage is never only about "happily ever after" with your loved one. It is about whether you can put up with his/her shit for the rest of your lives.
Affairs Anyone?
Have been hearing way too many accounts of married people seeing folks out of their marriage...
The typical two scenarios:
A married party involved with a single
Usually the married party will claim there are issues with the his/her marriage. The single will usually start off as a listening ear, and end up in bed with the former. Married party will get more and more involved with the single and drift away from his/her family. Shouldn't you be using water to extinguish the fire, instead of petrol??
A married party with another married party
Starts off as listening ears to each other complaining abt their spouses. As both are married and dissatisfied with their spouse, they can identify with each other's issues. Thus they feel more at ease with each other's company and (no prize for guessing it) end up sleeping with each other. What's worse, as both are cheating on their spouses, they became each other's support group in this dangerous liaison.
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For both cases, instead of resolving the issues they have within the marriage, they seek distraction out of the marriage. So more folks get dragged into the quicksand, from the third party, to their close friends who attempt to pull them out of the fix.
Why does one look out of the marriage for consolation, to escape and re-live the thrills of courtship and falling in love, when they should be fixing their problems?
To those who are presently in either scenarios, either go fix your marriage or just end it and move on with your lives. Stop telling me about how difficult it is and all that crap. It started off as a problem between 2 person, and you let it grow till it sucks all those around you into that blackhole that was once a blissful marriage.
If you are gonna stay where you are and lead this dual life, you deserve to be shot, ran over by a truck, stabbed continuously with a blunt dagger and fed into a grinder, selfish fuck.